Sunday, January 30, 2005

Sad

Check this out . 47 years in jail for a peaceful protest while being heckled by others. Unbelievable.

Here is a short video of the event so you know what happened.
The following video footage from “Outfest” shows Michael Marcavage with a megaphone attempting to sing and speak the gospel. The people in pink are the Pink Angels, and they are using 10 feet tall Styrofoam boards surrounding the Christians to block their signs, impede their movement, and prevent people from seeing them. The loud noises you hear are the Pink Angels blowing whistles and horns to drown out the Christians’ message.
http://www.afa.net/clp/videos/Philly11.wmv

If this angers you, click here.


Saturday, January 29, 2005

Only in Minnesota

Would I see something on the news talking about how a guy attacked someone with an auger (for those who are reading this from somewhere to the south, an auger is used like a drill by ice fisherman to get through the ice so they can fish).

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I find it interesting how tastebuds change and people get really really strong cravings for stuff while on chemo (I will hopefully be able to identify w/ a pregnant wife someday). Anyway, I ran across this link and found some of the stuff funny. Especially the three year old who ate nothing but salami, pepperoni, and chicken wings for 3 years. Personally, things have come back closer to normal for me, but I had intense cravings for tomatoes and salsa at the beginning of chemo. Esp. salsa. I put salsa on eggs, potatoes, tortillas, rice cakes, elk hamburger (the few times I had it), etc. I was using well over a 16 oz. jar a day. It seemed to work out badly that I started craving tomatoes just when the prices went way up due to the hurricanes in Florida. My wonderful parents were racking up a very hefty organic tomato bill. Now I am back to my normal large (instead of gigantic - thank you Zofran and other anti-nausea meds) diet of food and don't really eat much different than I have for the last couple of years. I have lost my desire to eat one or two items I might normally like, but in comparison to people that lose their desire to eat 90% of what they normally do, I am thankful.
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What do I eat while trying to get well?
After reading many, many books (good books I recommend would be... Beating Cancer W/ Nutrition by Patrick Quillan, The Maker's Diet by Jordan Rubin, The Cancer BattlePlan Sourcebook by Dave Frahm, Cancer Diagnosis by Cowden and Diamond, The Fungus Link by Doug Kaufmann, Tissue Cleansing through Bowel Management by Bernard Jensen, etc. The first four are must reads for cancer patients.) and watching quite a number of nutritional shows on sky angel, I came up w/ this as the best guidelines for eating during this portion of my life. I eat veggies, berries, apples, citrus fruit (but not oranges) wild fish, eggs, poultry w/ no antibiotics & hormones, brown rice, raw nuts in moderation (except peanuts and pistachios) and sprouted grain tortillas. Occasionally I allow myself to have some other fruit, hormone and antibiotic free elk, and lentils. I will probably always eat quite healthy, but not necessarily this strict for life. Things I would like to avoid for life as much as possible would be monosodium glutimate, dyes (like yellow #5), margarine, nutrasweet (and other artificial sweetners), hydrogenated oils (trans fats), and alcohol. To a lesser extent it would be wise to avoid white flour, sugar, yeast, pork, shellfish, and non-organic cow dairy (one reason being that some are now suggesting this might be the reason why our world is developing antibiotic-resistant bacteria. The majority of antibiotics in this country are not used on people, but animals like pigs, cows, and chickens, which we eat... kinda makes you want to eat organically, huh?).

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

The third will be in August...

or so it looks. I woke up from a nap to hear my mom yelling, "Your pregnant!!!!" So my third niece/nephew is due in August.

This chemo has gone quite well so far.

Monday, January 24, 2005

No Change, 90-95% change, 30-40% chance of currently being in remission

So... if that isn't a confusing title than I don't know what is. Anyway, I could tell people were praying for me to be at peace. My blood pressure today was at 110/52 (Normal-low for me). Quite amazing considering I have REALLY been looking forward to getting my Scan results. Well, I got my ct scan result. It shows the exact same as it did at my midpoint... no change on anything. There still is a tad amount of excess fluid around one of the lungs. I asked her if she thought that was due to cancer cells in the fluid or due to the lungs not draining properly due to the lymph nodes. She thought the latter. Pray that the lungs do drain correctly. The PET Scan (which measures cancer, not masses) showed a completly clean scan for all body parts (neck, armpits, etc.), with the exception of one tiny very faint spot on my chest, where the biggest mass (grapefruit sized) was before. Pet Scans are not fool proof (as they once were thought to be) and even though it showed 90-95% shrinkage, the very faint spot that remained might be scartissue. She said there is a 30-40% chance of this. So the plan would be to do my last chemo and meet w/ her and do a bit of radiation on the last part (3 weeks). This would start mid-February. Afterward, I would have another PET Scan to see if I am cancer free. If it still could not be determined I would have to do a surgery to get a biopsy. If I still was not cancer free, than I might be looking at an autologous bone marrow transplant. Anyway, I had prayed beforehand for wisdom for not just the doctor but for me. I also prayed that I would not be reacting to what she said the whole time that I didn't really pay attention to what was happening, but that I would be alert to what was going on (when a major diagnosis/prognosis happens it is easy to not pay attention much afterwards). So I asked if I should get another PET Scan done at a different place before starting radiation to see if that gave more clarity to that last little part left in my right upper chest. She said, "That might be a good idea, I'll check w/ the radiologist." So I am going to have another PET scan in a month (after I finish my 12th chemo). Pray that it shows greater clairity and that I am cancer free before the radiation.

Oh, on the issue of the lungs, I am still at 63. That is high enough to keep getting Bleomycin. She said that number will go up into the 70s or 80s after I have finished chemo. I probably wouldn't ever notice like a poorer performance in sports.

I just finished my 11th chemo, a good reason why this might be a little scattered. I'll also accept all prayers for this chemo and the twelfth to go well (esp. the first 3-4 days later), and that my body would have no permanent damage from the chemo.

Thanks for your prayers.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

So I got this...

message in an email from my uncle from what his friend said to him about going to the Iwo Jima monument in Washington D.C. (well, if I remember when I saw it, it was barely into Virgina). Anyway, normally I am not a fan of forwards, but I really liked this message. Anyway that friend of my uncles went to the monument and met a man who said the following...

"My name is James Bradley and I'm from Antigo, Wisconsin. My dad is on that statue, and I just wrote a book called "Flags of Our Fathers" which is #5 on the New York Times Best Seller list right now. It is the story of the six boys you see behind me.
"Six boys raised the flag. The first guy putting the pole in the ground is Harlon Block. Harlon was an all-state football player. He enlisted in the Marine Corps with all the senior members of his football team. They were off to play another type of game. A game called "War." But it didn't turn out to be a game.
Harlon, at the age of 21, died with his intestines in his hands. I don't say that to gross you out, I say that because there are generals who stand in front of this statue and talk about the glory of war. You guys need to know that most of the boys in Iwo Jima were 17, 18, and 19 years old.
(He pointed to the statue) "You see this next guy? That's Rene Gagnon from New Hampshire. If you took Rene's helmet off at the moment this photo was taken and looked in the webbing of that helmet, you would find a photograph. ...a photograph of his girlfriend. Rene put that in there for protection because he was scared. He was 18 years old. Boys won the battle of Iwo Jima. Boys. Not old men.
"The next guy here, the third guy in this tableau, was Sergeant Mike Strank. Mike is my hero. He was the hero of all these guys. They called him the "old man" because he was so old. He was already 24. When Mike would motivate his boys in training camp, he didn't say, 'Let's go kill some Japanese' or 'Let's die for our country.' He knew he was talking to little boys. Instead he would say, 'You do what I say, and I'll get you home to your mothers.'
"The last guy on this side of the statue is Ira Hayes, a Pima Indian from Arizona. Ira Hayes walked off Iwo Jima. He went into the White House with my dad. President Truman told him, 'You're a hero.' He told reporters, 'How can I feel like a hero when 250 of my buddies hit the island with me and only 27 of us walked off alive?' So you take your class at school, 250 of you spending a year together having fun, doing everything together. Then all 250 of you hit the beach, but only 27 of your classmates walk off alive. That was Ira Hayes. He had images of horror in his mind. Ira Hayes died dead drunk, face down at the age of 32. ...ten years after this picture was taken.
"The next guy, going around the statue, is Franklin Sousley from Hilltop, Kentucky. A fun-lovin' hillbilly boy. Franklin died on Iwo Jima at the age of 19. When the telegram came to tell his mother that he was dead, it went to the Hilltop General Store. A barefoot boy ran that telegram up to his mother's farm. The neighbors could hear her scream all night and into the morning. The neighbors lived a quarter of a mile away.
"The next guy, as we continue to go around the statue, is my dad, John Bradley from Antigo, Wisconsin, where I was raised. My dad lived until 1994, but he would never give interviews. When Walter Cronkite's producers, or the New York Times would call, we were trained as little kids to say, 'No, I'm sorry, sir, my dad's not here. He is in Canada fishing. No, there is no phone there, sir. No, we don't know when he is coming back.' My dad never fished or even went to Canada. Usually, he was sitting there right at the table eating his Campbell's soup. But we had to tell the press that he was out fishing. He didn't want to talk to the press.
"You see, my dad didn't see himself as a hero. Everyone thinks these guys are heroes, 'cause they are in a photo and on a monument. My dad knew better. He was a medic. John Bradley from Wisconsin was a caregiver. In Iwo Jima he probably held over 200 boys as they died. And when boys died in Iwo Jima, they writhed and screamed in pain.
"When I was a little boy, my third grade teacher told me that my dad was a hero. When I went home and told my dad that, he looked at me and said, 'I want you always to remember that the heroes of Iwo Jima are the guys who did not come back. Did NOT come back.'
"So that's the story about six nice young boys. Three died on Iwo Jima, and three came back as national heroes. Overall, 7,000 boys died on Iwo Jima in the worst battle in the history of the Marine Corps. My voice is giving out, so I will end here. Thank you for your time."
Suddenly, the monument wasn't just a big old piece of metal with a flag sticking out of the top. It came to life before our eyes with the heartfelt words of a son who did indeed have a father who was a hero. Maybe not a hero for the reasons most people would believe, but a hero nonetheless.
We need to remember that God created this vast and glorious world for us to live in, freely, but also at great sacrifice. Let us never forget from the Revolutionary War to the Gulf War and all the wars in-between that sacrifice was made for our freedom. Remember to pray praises for this great country of ours and also pray for those still in murderous unrest around the world. STOP and THANK GOD for being alive and being free at someone else's sacrifice.
REMINDER: Everyday you wake up free, IS a great day.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

-54

was what the temperature was in degrees Fahrenheit in Embarass, MN a couple days ago. We only got -24 or so around here. I remember when the record was set a few years ago. -68 in Tower. We were at a balmy -40 or so. I remember playing boot hockey in the driveway w/ my bro that day but had to come in after 45 minutes or so cuz we were getting cold.

I did my PET Scan yesterday... I'm still waiting for the results.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Mooning Moss

I am sure you have heard about the incident by now - Randy Moss simulated mooning the Packers fans after a touchdown grab to get back at the Packer fans mooning visiting teams busses after every game... I saw what these two had said in the Pionneer Press and liked what they had to say.

Moss's touchdown celebration was immature and obnoxious. But to call it "so disgusting that Fox TV refuses to show a replay" as Tom Powers asserts in his Jan. 10 column, "Figuring out Moss isn't worth the effort," is not only ridiculous hyperbole, but it isn't true.
Fox might not have immediately replayed it, but it was included in the highlight montage the network aired after the game. If Fox executives were truly interested in protecting viewers from disgusting or offensive material during a football game, they would eliminate explicit advertisements.
On a Sunday afternoon, watching a sporting event, it is disgusting that I had to shield the eyes of my 4-year-old Viking fan from the graphic promotion for "24," "Jonny Zero" and a video game about mercenaries.
JENNIFER WEDDELL
White Bear Lake

Forget Randy Moss. There is more filth on daytime TV, nighttime network TV and cable than Randy could every think up. Even the boys on after the game come up with some pretty tainted comments.
You can turn on your television and see sex and mayhem any hour of the day. Why pick on a guy who is obviously having a little fun playing football?
If the media would just report the news and quit playing like the National Enquirer, things would be a lot nicer.
Go, Vikings. Go, Randy. We could not do it without you.
MARGE WIESNER
St. Paul

Go Vikes! Beat the Eagles.

Monday, January 10, 2005

Comp. Sci. stuff.

I found some interesting things on some people's websites from Taylor.
I am nerdier than 15% of all people. Are you nerdier? Click here to find out!

I thought I would have done better than that with 30+ credits of comp. sci. and 24 math credits (a minor) finished.

So to leave no doubt on the matter I found some things very hilarious from this this website
I had to comment on a few...

(Lines_of_Code) / (Hours_of_Sleep) < (Number_of_Energy_Drinks_Consumed)
is clearly the funniest line... very true for many, many people I knew.

You end each line you type with ";", even plain english ones;
I actually did have some issues initially with this when typing papers...

You're pressing CTRL+S every 5 minutes, in every application..
but had a far bigger problem with this, and even more so with Esc:wq when wanting to close something

You sit stuck at traffic lights and work out a more efficient algorithm for them, based on road orientation, sensor placement, time of year, time of day, weather and local sporting events, in your head.
I just started thinking I had got all of the programming out of me when I did this all of a week ago, although I did so for emergency vehicles instead of some of the above.

You consider 'drinking caffeine' and 'sleeping' to be synonyms.
Very true for many of my friends...

You actually feel like crap from getting 8 hours of sleep, that just so unnatural.
I actually complained of this many times to friends at college. I thought sleep was supposed to come in either 4 hour intervals or 12 hour chunks of time.

Your mother phoned you to see if you were still alive, and you responded "ping".
Only a nerd would say that.

You wake up in the middle of the night with the solution to your coding problem.
Happened to me in Data Comm., second program.

Sunshine genuinely hurts your eyes.
Happened to me a few nights/mornings in the comp. sci. lab after spending the night there.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

The current plan

The current plan is to do my tenth chemo this Monday, and do my ct scan and pet scan the following week. Please continue to pray that I am cancer-free by this point. Pray also for this Monday and the three or four days after. Thanks.

After not getting a haircut in four months or a shave in nearly that long, I have longer hair than I have had in years. My hair doesn't grow as fast on chemo as it normally does, though.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

White Blood Cells and Neulasta Shots

I must say it. Neulasta shots work. After hovering around 3.5-3.9 for my white blood cell count for the vast majority of my time on chemo, they started giving me Neulasta shots, since I had to delay chemo once due to low counts. Those 800 dollar puppies work (thank God for insurance). I shot up past 8 when they gave it to me, despite doing chemo at the same time and am now out of the normal range at 13. Amazing. They seemed to think that was a better response than they normally get and asked me all sorts of questions as to wether I am sick. I certainly don't think I am. I figure God's just taking care of that like the rest of it (3 different times before doing Neulasta shots my wbc count actually improved after chemo, when chemo is supposed to be slaughtering your wbc count).

One thing that definetly helps boost the wbc count and heal the body up is going into a tub and sweating. If the water temp. is really hot a person can induce a small fever. Since wbc are reproduced rapidly in a fever it tricks my body into thinking it needs to make a lot more. The sweating meanwhile removes toxins (like chemo and the rest of the abundance of toxins in this world). I'll add in a bit of epsom salts in the bath water to further draw out bad stuff, but then I make sure to drink a LOT of water (at least a quart, and better yet, I drink turkey stock to really sweat) as the epsom salts will dry me out otherwise. Of course, I have to use tons of soap when I rinse off afterwards. The small fever is gone shortly after getting out of the tub. I was very miserable the first time I did chemo and one of the many reasons was due to not doing this for the first few days after chemo. Quite a few nutritionists recommend doing this when a person is about to get a cold or to regain health (Patrick Quillin, Dr. Shultz, etc.). Being in the tub, sweaty, wet, and alone is a very good time to pray...